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The Four Hallowed nights are key to many of our practices. The calendar of the Ancients was kept by the moons and the tides of seasons. We of the Old Faith still try to mark the rising and falling tides of the year with reverence, for the great year-tides show the greatest image of the ever-moving serpent power. The Ancients saw the year in terms of a great cold-time and a great warm-time that battled a war of eternity; the life and death of the Sun itself being watched with awe. We amongst the wise still track the sun through the sky, and wait for it to move into one of the great star-houses, and to open the gates of the Hallowed Nights, where we may slip through the cracks of dawn and dusk and enter into the Netherworld, there to join the others at the great Sabbatstead on the Meadow. When the Sun enters the House of the Lion, the middle point of the Summer has been reached, and the decline of the light powers must begin. Such is the sacrificial theme of the Red Day, Lammas, Old Harvest Home. The full bounty of the Lady has been reaped, and what is given demands something in return. To ensure plenty will come again, the spirit of the Ellfed God, The Red King, is killed to feed the fields, and his life-giving spirit loses its power and descends into the world below, which is a return the Womb of the Lady which gave him birth in the first place. He will await renewal in the ground, as the seed awaits the breaking of winter to burst forth new in spring. For we believe that from every grave comes a new life. The flesh of the Lord of the Earth is threshed and ground, as the grain, and he is consumed in body and in blood as bread and barley-liquor, so that by his sacrifice we may live on. This is the truest meaning of sacrifice. To die so that others may live is not to die at all. His wake-fires burn high and long into the night and he is mourned by the People, though we know that he must return one day, as must we all, when the arms of death take us.

Ok Like You All Know How I Am Like Single Now Right...???? Well YeahI Kinda Hate It Now.... Beucase Like I Dont Have That Guy To Call Any More When I am Scared.. Being Herassed.. (yeah You Know What I Am Talking About Jake....) Or Like When You Just Want Some ONe To Talk To About Something That Is Bothering You..... So Yeah Thi Kinda Of Sucks Butt Now.... I Will Just Have To Deal With It.. But hey At Least I Am Eating Normaly Again And Not Always Feeling Down.. But yeah.. I Am Outie. Toodles

You know, I like to keep this space light. I like to talk about things I love, the things that make me smile, the things that add music to my life. Kids. Dogs. Babies. Weddings. Fun quirky things. But, did anybody else see this story today? It makes my stomach hurt just to think about it: "Conservative U.S. evangelist Pat Robertson called for the assassination of Venezuelan President Hugo Chavez, saying the leftist leader wanted to turn his country into "the launching pad for communist infiltration and Muslim extremism." Maybe I'm being the alarmist, but when I see a television evangelist--someone who professes to follow the teachings of a person who epitomized peace on this planet--calling for someone's execution, I think something'sgone seriously wrong in religious-TV land. I mean, come on, guys. It's time to get Pat off the air. Somebody needs to check him for early-stage dementia. But in the meantime, please-please-PLEASE call one of the other television evangelists and ask him (or her) to send Pat a tract on forgiveness, on loving your neighbor, on "taking the board out of your own eye before you point out the speck in someone else's." Sheesh. When will somebody overturn the stock-and-gold-covered tables of these horribly mistaken hate-spreading leaders? Is there anyone in a position of authority who can tell Pat his job is in broadcasting and not politics? (No, it's not the same thing.) Okay, I'll try to calm down now. Back to our regularly scheduled programming. I'll go search for something uplifting to write about. [Blood pressure: 130/90]

Well carly wants me to do this survey! GENERAL Blog name = Survey! # piercings = 2, one in each ear # tattoos = none height = 5'4" hair color =brown siblings =3 sisters children = none How old do you look = some people say I look older, but I'm not sure. How old do you act = i don't know, ask other people not me! How old do you feel = geez, I don't knowhow can you feel age? Do you have any pets = a cat LAST... movie you rented = hmm...it was like an episode of Gilmore Girls i think movie you bought = i don't usually buy the movies...my parents buy them song you listened to = Swing, Swing by All-American Rejects song that was stuck in your head = Only Hope by Switchfoot cd you bought = i dunno tv show you've watched = haha...Fairly Oddparents DO... you have a secret crush = maaaaaaybe, like i'd tell you! you wish you could live somewhere else = by the highschool you think about suicide = nope you believe in online dating = nope others find you attractive = how should i know? ask others! you like cleaning = only sometimes, when i'm really bored you like roller coasters = i've never been on one. isn't that sad? i have a deprived life! tomorrow i'm going to seven peaks for the first time EVER. FOR OR AGAINST... long distance relationships = hmm...in between. using someone = against smoking =against! Death penalty = it depends on what the person did, but mostly against i guess. tough question! HAVE YOU... ever lied to someone? = yeah, i think everyone has. ever been in a fist fight? = nope! ever passed out on a street from drinking too much? = i don't drink, and i've never passed out in my life... ever told someone you loved them when you didnt? = nope. ever cheated on a lover/spouse? = how could i? i've never had a relationship ever cheated on a test? = nope WHAT... shoes do you wear most= my tennis shoes, or my flip flops are you scared of = getting kidnapped, spiders, car accidents do you want to be when you grow up =i don't know, there's lots of options! is your least favorite chore to do = clean my room makes you the happiest = making someone else happy, knowing that people care about me upsets you the most = being left out always makes you smile =good jokes,myself doing retarded things, people,others being happy NUMBER... of times I have been in love = none of hearts I have broken = i hope none! of people I can trust with my life with = my close friends...4 i guess of times my name has appeared in the newspaper = a couple times, i'm not sure of scars on my body = i have a lOT of things in my past that I regret = hurting someone i care about by accident of times I told people I loved them today =none today DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... pretty = sometimes funny = again, sometimes friendly = yeah i think so amusing = haha, sometimes ugly = when i'm sick or look like crap loveable = i hope so caring = yeah sweet = yeah i guess sensitive = yep a putz =if this is supposed to say clutz, then yes! mean = only if i lose my temper, but usually no FAVORITE... 6 letter word = i don't know, can't think of one Candy = allllll candy haha Cartoon = anything that's amusing Cereal = reese's puffs, lucky charms, captain crunch Color = green and blue Day of week = friday i guess Season = summer or spring Movie = i have alot Book = too many! TV Channel =i watch abc family a lot PERSON WHO LAST... Slept in your bed with you = no one, but i guess syd but it was on the floor Saw you cry = it's been a while...usually i go in my room and lock the door when i cry Made you cry = lots of people/things make me cry sometimes Yelled at you = it's been a while again, probably my mom Smiled at you =how should i know, lots of people smile at me Kissed you = my mom on the cheek HAVE YOU EVER... Gone out in public in your pajamas = yeah once for play practice with sarah Kept a secret from everyone = secrets about me Wished you were the opposite sex = nope, i don't think so Stolen someones newspaper = haha, no Borrowed something never meaning to return it = nope LOVE Do you believe in love at first sight = sure Most important quality to you in a relationship is = being able to tell each other everything, and being comfortable around each other. Who loves you most =my family and friends MISCELLANEOUS INFO Do you speak any other languages = french, but not fluently Last flavor you tasted = sunny delight Last noise you heard = my typing Last smell you sniffed = cookies! Last meal you ate = i haven't eaten anything today... Last beautiful thing you saw = i dunno Last emotion you felt = happiness Favorite item in your home = my computer, my phone, my camera Worst feeling in the world = regret and guilt FINISH THIS SENTENCE: I Love ... my friends and family I Miss ... my friends in arizona I Wish ...for a lot of things I Hope ... people think of me in a good way I Want ... lots of things I am ... tired I need ...sleep!! I'd rather die than lick ... a spider!! sick!

What the hell does it mean when you dream of a girl yet you wake up yelling your girlfriends name? Hmmmm I'll tell you what....I dunno, I'm just making it up, but i did have this strange dream about Linda tho... can't remember it really. What is the point of this msn spaces thing cuz it sounds stupid and soooo far itis stupid. But since I'm hella retarded I'm gunna type in this thing anyways. Tomorrow my girl comes back from her campthinga- majig. Can't wait, I've been soooo fucking bored since she's been gone. Her birthday's on the fourth; turning 16. Sinceshe came into my life I figured i better work out and take better care of myself, I mean if she wants a guy who is healthy and well strong that is, which she probably definently does. There was a girl from months ago who I deeply carred about, however, she didn't feel the same way about me because she had a boyfriend.She did lead me on though whether she thinks so or not. I waited for her for months andi eventually gaveup on her cuz the stress on me waspractically killing me.I was growing weaker and weaker and I was staring to spit up blood every now and then. Now I'm better since I got away from her and the fact that I got away from the guy who caused like 90% of my stress, my father. Thisbeautiful woman who came into my life has been actually making me feel a lot better. She's apparently giving me a chance unlike the other girl and well it's been a really good relationship by far. The other girl, Samantha, should know that your not going to know who your going to marry right when you see them, it's only after you've started dating them for a while. I still want to be her friend yet it's awkward cuz I used to like her and I don't want Linda to think I'm cheating or trying to cheat for someodd reason. Well enough chit chat for me I needs to go and so I'll talk to myself again on this thing?????... I hate this yet I am still typing. Linda comes back tomorrow!!!

And here are the photos of my first "permanent" residence in Sydney! My house mates Jo & Dave, Adam and Mandi (Shaun left us a couple of weeks ago) are great and thanks to them little by little I start to feel somewhat at home in Sydney, Australia! So darling housemates: THANKS!!!! In the meantime I got a promotion at the Hotel:duty manager! Three days a week I am the face of the Vulcan Hotel, Darling Harbour, Sydney Australia! The other days I make and serve breakfast at the inhouse cafe together with my newest flate mate Mandi, and onenight a week I am on call as thenightmanager... Lekker druk dus! Please check out the house and hotel (www.vulcanhotel.com.au). Dikke kus, Isabel

Umm.. Nothing really happened today.. I stayed at Jessi'z last night, cause we didn't have school today, but I wish we woulda.. I hate sittin at home all day, there's never anything to do. Well, last night, we went to Girard, to help set up for the comp thing tomorrow, it was pretty easy.. Got to meet Amber (Nicks g/f), she seems alright.. Idk, all she did was talk about Nick.. Alexa was there, she wasnt in much of a good mood I don't think, cause of Randall.. He's bein a butthole to her or something.. I guess he lied *shrugs*. Umm.. We goofed off after that.. and just sat around, and talked.. took a bunch of pictures.. and laughed. Today we got up at 7, and cleaned her room, and went to her grandmas.. then at about 9:30, we went froghunting.. Only found 1, but got covered in mud :) hahaha.. Thats it. Keep on, Keepin On.. Kt

The Organ - Brother Grab The Gun here we gotheyre back againlook alive , warn your friendswe are warm and we are safeenjoy it while you can beforethings changewe have got to take cover,brotherwe have got to take cover,brotherlie down in a field if you canlook at the night skyoh, where does it end?sometimes it hurts when youcare about mebut its going to hurt more whenthey take you away from mewe have go to take cover, brotherwe have got to take cover, brotherhere we go againoh midnight knocks!oh explosions!maybe its all made up in our headsthis happens to me when im boredor depressedhere is the best part of the songwhere i admit that i might be wrongbecause if they are good and ifthey are rightthen theyll have their rapture oneof these nightsbut if they are wrong... TLWTT

"i haven't seen you in forever!" she exclaimed outloud, climbing into a car laced with a handful of memories& priceless moments. the air was thick due to the humid, august weather, but the windows stayed down. their hair became scattered& frizzy as a clammy breeze took it's damp fingers& glided through their sun-kissed hair, which was tied up in ponytails, but somehow managed to fall in front of their glowing faces. these glowing faces, so full of life& energy. it was an unattainable force that seemed to create its own vacuum, sucking up the positive, but discarding the negative. there was this strange comfort to know that the person that was sitting next to them just understood perfectly without muttering a single word. before the sun had decided to rest, the drive they took through the country seemed to magnify the world in such a way that the passenger didn't know whether to a) cry because she felt so elated to a degree of bliss, because finally! life just seemed throw itself together in her head, answering all these questions that dwelled in the depths of her subconscious for months, or b) just smile because the sky was painted with pinks& blues& purples and there wasn't another soul in the universe who could replicate the array of color& beauty it was layered in. it was a masterpiece, hanging above their heads. but she sat still, her eyes on the horizon& whatever else caught the corner of her eye. the other had her eyes glued to the road that seemed to stretch& stretch, until maybe distance could be another word for growth. they let the music drift through the car, up& above their heads, through the entire convex of the car, rattling through their ears, and floating up to pierce the sky with soft bass lines& delicate voices that became etched into their memories. the passenger graced the edge of the blue/gray car, her fingers gently flowing as the breeze sent them adrift. catching pockets full of air, tracing the outline of the sun as it dipped beyond the horizon. then they entered town& it was magical. she then reached for the city lights that made everything seem so full of energy, a marquee to remind the world to wake up, you're alive. breathe. the other girl kept her hands on the steering wheel, safely coasting around the outskirts of town, gliding in& out of the city at the most perfect times, it seems. the music pumped& pumped, their skin layered with sweat& laughter, their voices hoarse from screaming at the top of their lungs, their faces still glowing even with the awful yet comforting humidity that made their cheeks& foreheads shine, their eyes full& bright, lively& jubilant; it was all contained in this car. the streets they drifted in& out of seemed to welcome them, inviting them to spark some life into this neck of the woods, where the neighbors sat outside& listened, just wanting to hear something else that they've never heard before. half the time there was silence, but the other half was composed of chewing each other's ear off, confessing, spilling, talking, venting, wanting, needing, asking. they ended the night with life wrapped around their fingers, understanding this beautiful tragic thing we've all been given to make the most of. they thanked each other for an amazing day. it was priceless, all& all. she stepped out of the car& said, "i'll talk to you tonight probably." and closed the door. but oh, how she wanted to just get back in& spend another few hours driving around town with the music up, the windows down, to let the air just wrap around them like sheets, and to flirt with that incredible itch for life that seemed to be impossible to scratch. but somehow, they seemed to grab at it& it was so easy to hold in the palm of their hand; it wasn't like the horizon, where you just reach& reach but can never touch, yet you keep trying because you know once you do, maybe everything will be better, maybe things will look up, maybe life will be beautiful. but tonight, it was different. life just was, and that was enough. and that's all it ever should be.

AS I WALK DOWN THE STREET IN A MOMENT OF LONELYNESS I FIND THAT I AM NOT REALLY ALONE...THAT THERE IS ALWAYS SOMEONE WITH ME ... RATHER IT BE A MEMORY OR IT BE GOD WICH I KNOW HE IS ALWAYS THERE ...WHEN I THOUGHT I COULDNT HANDLE THINGS THE WAY THAT I KNEW THEY SHOULD BE HANDLED.I DO KNOW THAT WHEN I DONT LOOSE MY FAITH AND AND WHEN I DONT FORGET TO PRAY ABOUT THINGS THAT GOD ID THERE AND WHEN I DO FORGET TO PRAY HE IS STILL THERE KNOWING MY NEEDS AND FORGIVING MY SINS...HOW CAN WE WALK THROUGH LIFE WITHOUT FAITH AND PRAYER AND UNDERSTANDING THAT THE REASON WE ARE HERE IS CAUSE JESUS DIED FOR OUR SINS AND WE ARE GODS CHILDREN RATHER WE CHOOSE TO BELIEVE OR NOT WE ARE STILL HIS CHILDREN..... THINK ABOUT IT THIS PPLACE WE CALL AMERICA WHEN THEY TOOK THE PLEDGE OUT OF THE SCHOOLS WENT TO HELL IN A HAND BASKET.... I KNOW WHAT IM GOING TO DO AND I HOPE YOU ALSO DO THE SAME ....CALL YOUR SENATOR AND CONGRESS MAN AND PLEASE ASK THEM TO ALLOW THE PLEDGE BACK IN THE SCHOOLS... AND ANOTHER THING I HAVE HEARD IS THAT THEY ARE TRYING TO PASS A BILL SO ANYONE CAN BURN THE AMERICAN FALG ANYTIME IN ANY FASHION THEY WANT... THAT IS OUR NATIONAL SYMBOL AND WHAT THEY RE SAYING IS THAT ITS JUST A PIECE OF CLOTH AND MANY PPL HAVE DIED FOR THAT FLAG,DEFENDED IT WITH HONOR AND THEY WANT TO JUST TURN IT INTO A PIECE OF CLOTH COME ON PPL WHERE IS OUR SENSE OF PRIDE OUR SENSE OF LOYALTY THE ONES THAT FOUGHT AND HAVE DIED AND THE ONES THAT HAVE FOUGHT AND SURVIVED DID IT FOR THE REST OF US SO WE COULD STILL BE FREE AND HAVE THE RIGHTS WE HAVE WHAT IS THE COUNTRY COMING TO...NOW DONT GET ME WRONG I AM PROUD TO BE AN AMERICAN AND I HAVE KNOWN MANY PPL THAT HAVE FOUGHT IN OUR WARS AND SOMETHAT DIDNT COME BACK AND THE ONES THAT CAME BACK DIFFERENT CANT WE ALL STAND TOGETHER AND DEFEND OUR NATIONAL SYMBOL AND BRING THIS COUNTRY BACK TO WHAT IT ONCE WAS SORRY FOR THIS BUT I STILL BELIVE IN ONE NATION UNDER GOD THAT IS WHAT THIS COUNTRY WAS BUILT ON AND CAN YOU HONESTLY TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED.......WE ALL NEED TO STAND TOGETHER AND BRING IT BACK... MAYBE IM WRONG FOR THIS... BUT IN KNOW THAT I LOVE MY COUNTRY AND THE FLAG AND I GET CHILLS EVERYTIME I SING THE NATIONAL ANTHEM AND WHEN I SAY THE PLEDGE ..... IM URGING YOU TO BELIEVE JUST AS MUCH AS I DO THAT ONE PERSON MAKES A DIFFERENCE I AM HOPING THIS MAKES A DIFFERENCE

Skool!! tomorrow I have P.E. and that sucks a lot. U C we're getting ready 2 do d mile run. Wich is 5 laps around the field. And the feild is big!!! I hate P.E. !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! It sucks a lot. I hate it a bunch. I have trouble running. With 1 lap I am so out of breath. I wish it would rain but I know it won't. I wish I could skip it but I can't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GUMBIGRLSIS*****

Well, I haven't wrote in this thing in a while so I'll just sum things up: Monday: work..went to get my tb skin test...went to my night class Tuesday: went to class (went to the wrong class..lol, yes I know, I'm a dork!), Tuesday night I ran two miles.. Wednesday: went to get my tb skin test read...hmm..went to church then ran three miles.. Thursday: went to class (the right one this time!)...went to work Friday: slept til bout 9:30..went to Mayfield....went to my NAA class for about two hours..came home..went back to Mayfield...went to Carlisle County Fair.. Saturday: went to work...washed my car..and I think I'm fixin to go out w/Lauren, but I'm not sure..lol... Yes, I know such an exciting week..lol..not really..well, later, I'm out!

Okay, so Juliana has challenged us to record a typical day in our work routine, so I thought today I would attempt to do this in near real-time. 7:30Arrive at work, grab coffee, and read NY Times online 7:55 Officiallystart working 8:00 Begin checking and responding to morning emails 9:15 Put together cost proposal for prospective customer and email it to them 9:30 Call several prospective customers in central time zone 9:50 Check new RSS feeds in Newsgator 9:55 Unexpected conference call with customerproject/evaluation team 10:15 Call several prospective customers in mountain time zone 10:45 Call Susan (my boss) and discussed a webinar we hosted yesterday and strategized about a potential contract expansion for one of our consortium customers 11:30 Call my parents to see how my fathers surgery went 12:00 Call our Boston office to check on implemenation details for new government customers who might act as potential references 12:15 Check with our DigiTool product specialist on open travel dates in September and October 12:30 Check with our MetaLib Support Manager to answer questions posed during the unexpected conference call this morning 12:50 Check email .. and saw that the Boston office is now having a party :( 12:57Wrote all of this down here 1:00Lunch 1:30 Update Salesforce.com with notes from this morning 2:00 Create PowerPoint presentation on the electronic journal browsing/searching available in both SFX and MetaLib 2:45 Call potential customer and setup meeting and product demonstration for SFX in early October 3:15 Email 4:15 Call current customer to discuss their experience going through the implementation process for SFX. 4:30 Call prospective customer from early this morning to see if there are any unresolved issues 4:45 Email product feedback and competitive info to our product managers 5:00 Update Salesforce.com & setup tasks for tomorrow 5:30 Compile list of reference sites for prospective customer to be sent out tomorrow